Yep....just another day..... and the day seems to be coming along just fine.... and then as I listen to my music on my pages, and certain songs well bring back flash backs...........

SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.... is my favorite song....EVER, and will always be.  But when I am alone and lonely, well I get flash backs.....of my SON, KEOKI.....and not the good ones...... God, it hurts.   To see him over and over again laying in the bed with God tubes down his throat.... his skull stapled...... his leg in a cast...... AND I COULDN'T HELP HIM.............then to see him when he passed being wheeled down to have his organs donated........ that made me so so weak cause he is gone.... no hugs, no kisses ever again..... no joking around.... no more of his loud laughter....................

IT TAKES ME TIME TO GET IN CONTROL.... AGAIN after these flash backs.... so trying to control myself now.....